Dear little baby,
You are the size of a grape, or a raspberry, depending on which website I consult. The ultrasound technician who took your first picture told us you are about the size of an adult’s pinky nail. That seems smaller than a fruit to me. We saw you for the first time just a few days ago. Daddy and I both took time off work and went to the hospital and I held my breath while a super nice lady put jelly on my belly. I held my breath while she pushed a wand around and the screen was black and white and there all sorts of clumps on the screen. Then we saw a little flicker. That flicker was your heartbeat. I breathed and it felt like the first time I had breathed since I saw that I was pregnant. Your heart was beating, and the technician said it was a good strong heartbeat. Most moms and dads don’t get to see pictures of their babies so early, and I felt so lucky while the technician took lots of pictures and measured you a few different times. Then she held the wand still and said we might see you move. You were so tiny and the screen was so dark that I thought we would never be able to see anything at all, but just a second later, you wiggled. YOU WIGGLED! Daddy and I both saw it at the same time, and we laughed, delighted. It was amazing.
The technician told me to go to the bathroom (I had to drink lots of water so the ultrasound would work) and I shut the door and started crying. I was so relieved that you were safe, so amazed that you were REAL, so proud to have a picture of you to send to Nana and Grandpa and Grammy and Grampy. Our family is big and full of love. Your aunts and uncle have been so excited. Your cousins are planning what outfits they want to buy for you and packing up their baby toys to share. You are the first grandchild on both sides of the family, and by the time you are here, you will only be the third great-grandchild. You are going to be terribly spoiled. You will never learn to walk, the way you will be squeezed and held. Our arms are already waiting for you.
The day after your first picture, Daddy and I started telling people you were coming. We couldn’t keep our joy a secret for one more second. Our friends are so happy. We can talk about you and plan for you and you give me the most wonderful excuses to eat lots of yummy foods (if I get hungry then my tummy gets really sick) and to rest and read and watch TV. You have made the love that Daddy and I share bigger. You are already a miracle. I already love you more than I understand.
I’ll talk to you again soon.
Love, your Mama